Finding your Inner Deity

The next therapeutic exercise is about finding your Inner Deity. This goes with the other part of the exercise, which is about finding your own pathway to Self-Realisation. The process is best explained as we go along with the exercise.

To start it may be useful to have a sheet of paper and pen to use.

Imagine that you have completed the initial steps of your Therapeutic Journey to Self-Realisation, which has lead you to the beginning of some slopes – leading up to a mountain top. We have got this far by completing the previous exercises and reading the information to this point.

Now as you look around, you see a number of pathway entrances, these all have arches behind which opposition and some platforms or booths? Attending here are some people and some information boards. These pathways seem to represent various religions or spiritual groups/organisations concerned with your spiritual and religious journeys.

On the information boards you are informed that to go on their pathway there will be some requirements. These are in the “small print”, and may include some fee or other cost of your time and energy. People at the archways may suggest that you join that particular religious/spiritual denomination in a more formal manner. Anyway, there are going to be some requirements that you fit in along the path at some point with their particular model or practice.

You may have already been on some of those pathways, so here on your piece of paper, write a little brief note about what you tried. What is the groups name and maybe put a tick or a cross with a little note. You may note that was bad, that didn’t work out well, that it was interesting, or it help me to quite a bit. Or, “I have been thinking of joining this group, but I haven’t got round to it due to some reservations”.

The point of the exercise is to track and make some very brief notes about your particular circumstance in regard to the religious and spiritual journey. Now other side of the paper put in another arch. This arch leads somewhere, and just past the arch there seems to be three or four different diverging paths.

There’s nobody there, there’s no information board, just a little note, which says this is the way to the summit of Self-Realisation. This is the one you want to go on. (As far is this book is concerned anyway). Obviously you need a guide of some sort for you to choose the right path. So this exercise right now, it’s about how to get to correctly choose on one of those three or four paths. This is about finding your Inner Deity – the inner guide or guru. Your Deity it’s more than just a guide. It has a support a role also.

This is now a meditation/mindfulness exercise. You will need to close your eyes. I prefere to do the relaxation exercise, as previously, and the part of a Diffusion exercise where you visualise yourself on a mountain looking out – for someone/something. This someone is not seeing somebody standing there in a physical body. You need, however, to mentally create a person in your visualisation. It can also be an energy, a light, an aura – whatever you experience.

Then you place that person or energy somewhere around you, connected in some way. This awareness should come to you, if you are already reaching out for your Inner Deity. (Who can guide this choice). For me, it was finding a person in my dreams, meditations and practice. It was a “person” who seemed to be a gatekeeper of some sort, who would say “come with me”. I wondered if this was somebody at the gates of some sort of heavenly environment, and this was somebody I would see when I died. Therefore, I was just getting a preview of what might happen in the future. This person sometimes took me uphill on a path, and as we just finished I would get some sense of awareness or even transcendental being, at that point. This awareness didn’t have any connection to any structural form or shape, or relatedness to anything. I just was, doing my own being.

It may not happen like this to those seeking this Deity/Guide, and it is a production from inside not outside.  We need to get some sense of this person, energy, or being, as somewhere near to us, or around us, and be able to go back there to reproduce that connection.

For me this person became my inner guide over time and became a voice of guidance. that seemed to be placed somewhere near my right shoulder. Then I was guided to see my particular personal Deity in a Divine form. I my case I have a personal Goddess in the form of the Devi –Hindi or Buddhist. I felt guided to a specific form and devotional methods, as described in my previous books. From a Therapeutic Journey perspective though I can also accept that these forms are part of the universe energy, manifesting through my own inner energy – the Inner Deity. It doesn’t have to be religious or even spiritual. It is “energy” beyond what we are able to scientifically measure currently. So this doesn’t have to be for you, the reader, a personal God or Goddess, or addressed with previous terminology, like the use of the word spiritual.

I call it here: CEP – Conscious Enlightenment Practice.

(It can be consciousness in the form of light or energy atoms bouncing around, or some form of Cosmic Emanation that is currently more elusive than a black-hole or antimatter).

In my case, the direction to me was to see my deity attached to my heart, by some sort of cord, and placed slightly to the right hand side. From here I developed my particular religious and spiritual practice further, which has been enumerated in my previous books. I also learnt to transcend all the forms of self. and all perceived gods/goddesses/powers. Then only consciousness as oneself remains. This is not a new philosophy/belief as this is a topic of Vedanta. Advaita Vedanta or non dual Vedanta is a philosophy which considers everything as false except for your existence/consciousness, which is called “Brahman”. (Or a Cosmic Consciousness). Atheism may be similar but different, as Brahman can be considered to be what “God” really is, whereas atheism eradicates the term God.

For this book, the practices here can be seen as spiritual practice, or a completely secular Therapeutic Journey, involving only therapeutic perspectives. Here the visualisations of the exercise are about finding a power, a strength, which will enable progress to the stated goal of Self-Realisation. (As discussed in my initial blogs).

Back to the next step of the exercise. The progress will be attained by asking question of the deity or guide, as to which pathway you should choose. Remember, this force is part of you. It is not separate. It is not a separate over there, or even a separate group outside of you. This is your inner guide and you record that you “hear” from a guide, and you decide or choose what action to take. It might not be a big deal, because we just want a result. (Finding the pathway to choose, and having the right force/energy to carry us through along the track).

May the force be with you!